Last year, the end of 2017, I felt a heavy weight thinking about the upcoming year. 2017 was a huge year for me personally and 2018 looked so dull in comparison. It was going to be a year of grinding work, knowing that the goals I set out to accomplish wouldn’t be achieved in the next 365 days. Surrounded by people ready to attack yet another year, when I was still trying to process the triumphs of the previous year, left me feeling resentful.
It wasn’t a year filled with accomplishing big dreams but it was definitely not the year I expected it to be, in the best way. So, in the spirit of recognizing how different I feel tonight, looking back at 2018, I thought I’d hit on some of my favorite moments.
This one requires a little explanation. During the first year of law school, we write something called an appellate brief. It’s the biggest paper of the year and it is very important. And then we argue (to a panel of three ‘judges’ who are usually professors or attorneys). I was in the pair that went first, out of everyone, so we had quite the crowd. We were lucky enough to argue in the Idaho Supreme Court. And after the first three minutes of being terrified, I LOVED it. And I think both I and my opponent absolutely crushed it. It was a great reminder that I do want to be an attorney, that I had made the right decision, and all the work of law school will be worth it.
Moving into a house
(First off, we are renting the house.) I could write pages on why I love living in a house but I’ll keep it short. First, privacy: no noisy neighbors, no bright lights. Second, the garage: cool in the summer and I have yet to scrape snow off my car this year. Third, the yard.
My Marathon PR/Second Marathon
Since this is a running blog, did you expect anything different? I worked my ass off, during a hectic semester, and pulled off a 10 minute PR. Hell yes.
First Backpacking Trip
Listen, I am someone who HATES packing. So what possessed me to think I would like an activity centered around how much stuff you can stuff into a backpack is beyond me. But I did and I am so glad I did. We backpacked in the Sawtooth Mountains, camped in the snow, and it was the most content I think I have ever been. Sun overhead, pine trees all around, mountains scraping the sky, and a place so few people will ever see.
Our first dog. He was a handful, he tested my patience, he made me care more than I ever had before about another living thing’s bowel movements, and he is so beyond worth it. His excitement to see me, every single day, reminds me not to take myself too seriously. And he’s only going to get better.
Obi and Minnie
Obi, the king, who still prefers Matt to me but when he purrs for me, it feels that much sweeter. Minnie, the queen, nervous and skittish but with a purr that could end wars. (Okay, I’m exaggerating ever so slightly.)
I love them so much and they are all still here, still healthy, and we all genuinely like each other. I am beyond lucky and so grateful that we’ve worked to keep liking each other.
And Matt, the family I chose, what a year we’ve had. Let’s see how many more we can get.
And lastly, the person I’m becoming
I’m not even close to the person I want to be but I really like this person I am right now. I’m not perfect. Too loud, harsh in my judgments, sometimes too honest, sometimes not willing to admit I’m wrong. But I’m still here. My body is healthy enough to carry me over 26.2 miles and to climb mountains and to hug the people I love.
2018, thank you. Thank you for being a year of work but also a year filled with happiness, a year that reminded me that while goals are big and bright, life along the way is where beauty lies.
2019, let’s get to work.
Until next time, beautiful humans,